The words flew out of my mouth like lightening piercing the night sky. With muscles tightly wound, I found myself grappling with an ever-so-familiar weakness. These words of mine, loud and unsteady, wounding those I love. My body felt heavy, aching from sin's curse. The weight of my actions, resounding in my mind.
How long must I struggle?
HOW LONG must I struggle with my unyielding weakness?
“I do not understand what I do. For what I want to do I do not do, but what I hate I do.”
(Romans 7:15, NIV)
The struggle is real, and for me, it's my words spoken in anger.
I'm grasping for change, and it's elusive, often seeming unobtainable. I pray. I post Scripture verses on my mirrors, and yet, my fleshly tendencies sway me elsewhere. It's a constant battle.
Can you relate?
We are all plagued by sin, with some areas more dark and strong than we'd like to admit. Life is messy, and we are wrestling with areas of weakness the enemy would love to have control over. If we were just like everybody else in the world, we'd patch up our messes and call it good. We'd strive to put ourselves together in a nice package, appealing on the outside, but rotten within.
But you know what?
We're not just like everybody else in the world. God saved us from a life of despair. He redeemed us from a life of sin, so we can have life to the fullest, (John 10:10). And we all yearn for him and hope for change because we recognize the true filth we are.
Change is never easy though. Unlike the world, God wants to do more than just patch up our messes. He wants to change the deepest parts of our beings. The kind of areas we live with for years and somehow convince ourselves they are a part of who we are. God calls us out of these unmanageable depths. He speaks truth where there are lies. He urges us to wrestle with these strongholds in prayer, and promises a way out, (1 Corinthians 10:13).
Maybe today you are struggling with a decade-old weakness. You pray and try, but you find yourself on your knees, bowed down before our gracious King in repentance—again.
Can I just say?
You are not alone.
Keep pressing on. One day you will no longer have to fight these all consuming battles. But in the meantime, be encouraged by these three truths:
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Thanks to The Better Mom for publishing my guest article!